Deep down, I know you mean well. I know you're not trying to be malicious with your question, and you're not intentionally trying to incite my emotions. Yes, I am aware I am both Mom and Dad to my son. Do you honestly think I need to be reminded of it? I'm sure as hell not going to celebrate that fact because this wasn't my choice. Five years ago, I never thought I'd be in this position. But, here I am, and I'm trying my best to get through it.
I may not show my emotions as much anymore, but Father's Day is still extremely tough for me. It always will be. It'a still a reminder that my son's father, and my dad are both gone. So, while we try to make the most of a shitty situation, and we do a pretty damn good job at it, it still sucks. It still hurts.
So, your PSA for today is... please, don't ask me how Father's Day was because I really don't want to unpack those emotions.
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